[ He wraps his arms so tightly around himself that itstarts to hurt, unable to stop the tears that start to flood silently down his cheeks. He hates that he gets like this, hates that Zewu-jun has to see him like this, but he’s...

He’s utterly heartbroken. There’s no other word for it. ]

I’m such a— a— I believed him, I completely believed him, even in Lanling when he— I keep trying to think back through everything he said and - and figure out why I didn’t know, but I—

[ He made a sound, a choked half-sob. ]

I j-just wanted things to be different here, I wanted a family that was - that was okay, that l-loved each other, except no one does, it’s all just - just death and- and anger and- and revenge and—

I just wanted thugs to be okay and now everything is worse than I even knew—