[ Jin Ling looked away, glaring off at some undetermined point, his lips thinned and his eyes narrowed. It wasn't that the appeal didn't have an effect on him. Of course it did. But it hurt in ways he wasn't expecting.
Having to grieve an uncle - a father, in all senses of the word save the literal - all over again. Having to admit to himself that his Uncle wasn't actually here, that this wasn't him.
That this man didn't even understand him. ]
Who the hell would say you weren't enough.
[ Is what comes out in the end. ]
You really don't -- You just really don't get it, do you? I'm not a child. I'm not looking for you to- we've already done all that. Even if you wanted to, you wouldn't get to raise me again. [ And he's pretty sure Jiang Cheng doesn't actually want to. ]
All I want is a chance to be by your side. I don't care how you figure it out. And I don't care if I understand you or not. I mean sleeping with my father I feel like is a little much no matter how you parse it, but I--
If that's seriously what this is about - if this is seriously because you're -- you're lonely, or you're sad, or whatever -- I mean we all feel that way here, don't we?
We're all out of step with each other. You don't think I feel lonely as hell? You don't think I'm tired of being a disappointment or worse?
I just want you to talk to me. I don't want to have to find this- this shit out later. If you don't know how to handle your responsibilities, maybe you should talk to me about what those actually are.
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Having to grieve an uncle - a father, in all senses of the word save the literal - all over again. Having to admit to himself that his Uncle wasn't actually here, that this wasn't him.
That this man didn't even understand him. ]
Who the hell would say you weren't enough.
[ Is what comes out in the end. ]
You really don't -- You just really don't get it, do you? I'm not a child. I'm not looking for you to- we've already done all that. Even if you wanted to, you wouldn't get to raise me again. [ And he's pretty sure Jiang Cheng doesn't actually want to. ]
All I want is a chance to be by your side. I don't care how you figure it out. And I don't care if I understand you or not. I mean sleeping with my father I feel like is a little much no matter how you parse it, but I--
If that's seriously what this is about - if this is seriously because you're -- you're lonely, or you're sad, or whatever -- I mean we all feel that way here, don't we?
We're all out of step with each other. You don't think I feel lonely as hell? You don't think I'm tired of being a disappointment or worse?
I just want you to talk to me. I don't want to have to find this- this shit out later. If you don't know how to handle your responsibilities, maybe you should talk to me about what those actually are.