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Jin Ling ⬤ The Untamed
residential district ⬤ couch surfing hobo
moonblessing ⬤ iris

i'm not his anything!

well, his friend, that's me, and that means a lot to him, but when he finds someone he wants to fall in love with, he has every right to pursue that. he deserves to love someone as freely as he wants to.

i don't want to be that friend who gets all weird just because their friend's in love with someone.

at the very least you're his best friend
the VERY least

and he never got married back home
why would he suddenly do it here

look you can feel something and not be weird about it
but if you pretend you don't feel it at all then you're definitely going to be weird about it

he was probably waiting for zewu-jun to get married first, and it's hard to find a match for a man like zewu-jun.

lan zhan is my closest friend. he knows my heart better than i do.

there are some things i won't be able to walk back, and it scares me that this might be one of them.

[ He lets out a sigh. ]

if he knows your heart already then why try to lie about it
why pretend you'd be okay with something you wouldn't be

hanguang-jun would forgive you anything

you know that, right?

i'm pretty sure you could stab him and he'd still be there

[ Jin Ling had done far worse - had stabbed Wei Wuxian instead - and for some reason Hanguang-jun still seemed to care about him. And that was solely because of how they both felt about Wei Wuxian. ]

jin ling. he knows, and he hasn't given any sign or permission.

that's why i don't know what i'm supposed to do. if he knows, then...

maybe he doesn't want to. with me.

to be fair you're kind of
all over the place sometimes

maybe he doesn't know as much as you think he does either

but you can't assume what he wants to do or not do

if he said he didn't want to
with you
would that be it? would you not be able to be around him anymore?

or would you still want to be around him anyway

i would still be his friend! but it won't be the same after that. it can't be, because

i'll always want for more, and

and if lan zhan says no

i don't know if i can handle it if he did

[ are they still talking about moonlacing, who knows ]

[ Yeah this definitely isn't about the moonlacing ]

well maybe you need to figure that out first, then

figure out what you want and if you could take not getting it

and if that would be better or worse then never trying in the first place

[ he's being schooled by the next generation and honestly wei wuxian ain't mad about it. ]

this is good advice, nephew.

i think i know what i have to do now.

thank you for listening to me.

[ Spoilers, he can dish it but he sure can’t take it. He just riffs wisdom off Sizhui sometimes. ]

you’re welcome

you’ve done more for me before, so

i will just slowly pay it back

you know you don't have to, right? i'm your uncle. it's my duty to help you.

[ oh

oh he actually feels his chest clench ]

....

yeah.

i do.

you won’t understand why for a long time but

just

accept that i want to help you too okay