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jin ling

[how does he say this.]

it would be hypocritical of me to make demands on what you should and shouldn't do here

and even as your father, i also don't want to dismiss the judgment of your uncles, who've raised you in my absence

but i want

i wish

i would have you follow your heart

you do have responsibilities, and you'll have more

but they would surely be easier with the support of someone who cares as much about you as you do for them

of your own choosing

[ There's a long, long pause. ]

you didn't choose mom

not at first

and i don't know a better love story

so

that's true

but your uncles and i could search all the worlds for all of time and never find another like her

...

[does he dare say it, is he gonna namedrop.]

however

if you were inclined to spend more time with the lady yuri

i would approve

[ Jin Ling startles himself so badly that he walks into a wall. Motherfucking OW.

So his reply is a little late because he has to rub his head for a minute. Ow. ]

wh

who even said anything about yuri!!

how do you even know her!!

who said i do anything with her i'M A PERFECT GENTLEMAN

she introduced herself to me as your friend

i know that sometimes friends can mean friends

but i found her to be polite and honest and you should be a perfect gentleman with her whether you're friends or

friends

i
that

we’re friends!!!

it’s just
friends kind of
mean something different here

have you held hands with this friend

kissed her

does she know about the small mole on your hip

is that even still there?

[ oh god ]

w

what does it matter where i have moles!!!!!!!!

or what i’ve
thAT’S

WHO CARES HOW MANY PEOPLE I KISS ANYWAY

are there many?

well, you are young and handsome its no surprise

i just hope you will continue making time for your father with all these

friends

im sure that you will

youre a good son

[ he’s going to die

he’s going to damn well die. ]

you’re so

of course i’d make time for you don’t be stupid!!!

just tell me where you want me to be and i’ll be there!!!!!

and it’s not like
it’s not THAT many
i just

it’s
it’s nice to have friends for once!!!
stop making it weird!!!!

[ are you sure he’s the one making it weird, jin ling ]

Edited 2020-03-09 15:36 (UTC)

alright

[he's not trying to get jin ling all wound up, despite what the smile that he feels on his lips might suggest.]

i'm just happy that you have friends

you deserve to be surrounded by others who realize how wonderful you are

you’re so embarrassing

what do you know about how wonderful i am or not anyw

[ He regrets the statement before he even finishes it, goes to delete it, and presses send instead.

fuck ]

[he does have a point. but zixuan works quickly to salvage this.]

i know you are

you got it from me

[jin zixuan, you were not wonderful either but you came through in the end.]

i wish

i was never able to live up to you

jin ling

please don't make me tell you about the time i ran away from your mother in tears. i'm not sure you're ready.

what

nevermind

i cannot

if you don’t tell me i’m going to assume you made it up to try to make me feel better!!!!

alright

alright

[but is this going to make him feel better or worse?? zixuan has regrets.]

my father, your grandfather, hosted a night hunt and invited everyone to take part. i wanted yout mother to come, i went to her personally, but i let her believe that the invitation was from my mother because

because i was too prideful, too stubborn.

it turned into a spectacle. there were misunderstandings and arguments, and i regret to say that i did nothing. your mother was going to leave when i finally gathered up enough courage to tell her that the invitation was really from me, that i was the one who wanted her there.

...unfortunately, my courage ran out. i ran away.

[feel better yet, jin ling? oh wait.]

you can ask zewu-jun if you don't believe me. or hanguang-jun. or wei wuxian. they were there, and if they remember the hunt, i'm sure they'd be delighted to back up these facts for you.

[ There’s a long pause. ]

why would i ask them
i believe you

why did you run away

the only story people kept telling me was the lotus garden

i was a man who'd fought battles, faced monsters. i had no fear of such things.

but i was still a boy in some ways. i had feelings that i didn't know how to express properly, and i was ashamed. so i ran away.

well
of course you were never afraid of monsters and stuff

but i don’t know
i don’t see why this would make it easier to live up to you

i

so what if you ran away then you made up for it four times later

i like to think that i did. but i have been young too.

you will live up to me. and someday, surpass me. i have no doubt of that.

[ u g h

why are feelings so hard

he just grips his phone for a while ]

yeah well

if that's what i have to do to make my father proud of me then i'll do it

[ He had enough Yunmeng Jiang in him to attempt the impossible. ]

make no mistake, your father is proud of you regardless.

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