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Jin “I’m not tsundere, you're tsundere!!” Ling ([personal profile] inheritedpain) wrote2020-01-18 01:48 am

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[personal profile] lanofsizhui 2020-04-14 08:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, he looks like me like a twin brother. How can I not dislike myself? He is very helpful and kind when I arrived here.

[A pause, a beat. Sizhui is starting to get it and he halted what he's originally wanted to say.]

Oh, you like him that way. I...oh okay...not friend...

[Sudden silence. This is starting to get awkward. He sat there, not knowing what to do, ball of anxiety begin to tighten in his chest. What is he getting himself into? He swallows thickly. He needs Wangji's cool exterior so he's summoning all of that to surpress his cordis tendencies which is slamming against him like a ton of bricks, and he's resisting.

He can't pull his hand away. He's in a bit of a stupor. Until he decides the other lets go. Looking at him nervously, suppressing his cordis feelings down and set it selfish wants aside]


You know, Jin Ling, did you drink all of your tea? Did it help? You should take a rest. You know, whatever I said, it's the moon talking. Lunacy I think! And should you decide to train, we can train together and figure out a day!
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[personal profile] lanofsizhui 2020-04-14 09:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[Sizhui was fairly innocent. He was used to being a bubbly, energetic child in Gusu, warm-hearted, wise, and kind to everyone. Which is a contradiction, because he raised by Wangji and uncle and the seniors of Lan, so he guards his emotions and his thoughts and to never dropped his guard.

Whatever guards he puts up, both natures started to crumble - which is why he's in a stupor. Did Jin Ling like his other self that way? What does he himself want? Probably it's the cordis moon talking. And anyway, he probably shouldn't feel this way, thinking his life shall remain the same.]


It's all right. You...drank too much. For me, it's the moon talking. Now that I know, it's all right you feel that way. [He needs to clarify, because he sends a mixed message.] You can....you're still my friend and I'm looking forward to train with you everyday. Nothing has change in our routine. You're my friend and like my brother. I see my other version of myself like that too.

[He gently pull his hand away and acts like he's been seer by a flame...and he's causing him pain with his own lack of self-awareness.]

It's getting late. So it's for the best that I should be going and you get rest.

[It's the polite way to excuse himself, to get space, to cool his feelings, to collect himself or rush home and smack himself in the head to don't remember what he said.]
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[personal profile] lanofsizhui 2020-04-14 10:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[… … …oh. He has hurt him. He doesn't meant to raise his false hopes up. He has tried to give him his rationale. Friends. Brother. So nothing is lost or gained.

But on deeper feelings, Sizhui isn't certain how he feels about him. Is there a difference between him and the version of himself? He's also a future sect leader, so he can't like him that way. This never happen before.

He has to get away from this mess he created. Maybe it is the moon messing with his mind. He doesn't know.]


It's the moon. [Hopefully, he'll accept that as an answer. Slowly he rose and makes an apologetic bow. It wasn't any of Jin Ling's fault. The fault is all on him. For not understanding where he stands with him.]

[This is a plea.] Jin Ling, please don't think too much about me or be hard on yourself. [Forcing a smile. This is all his fault. Better to walk away to lessen the burden and isolate himself in the Lan's household for comfort.]

I'll see you later and tomorrow, Jin Ling. And feel better.

[He'll stand by and lingers for a bit, before he quietly dismissed himself, and heading out the door. Meanwhile, the door inside of his heart gets shut.]